If you're reading this, then I am dead. I'm sorry for the pain you're feeling right now. I know despite the way things ended between us, that you did love me, and I always loved you Doc. I'm asking you for the sake of the love we shared to listen to my last request for you. I only pray that you will find the courage to grant me that request.
Doc, I know you did the best you could with a tough situation. After a lot of sleepless nights and days filled with thinking of you, I finally realized that you and John couldn't help the feelings you had for each other. In some ways I guess they were born out of your love for me. After all, you thought John was me when you fell in love with him. It was a cruel trick of Stefano's. We were all his victims Doc. So I just wanted you to know that I don't hold you or John responsible for your affair. Both of you are quality people, people whom I value and love. John is a decent man. When I came back, he stepped aside and let us be together. That took a lot of strength. I don't know if I could have been able to walk away from you in the same circumstances. But I understand that you both must have been drawn back to each other. I have a feeling that you are still drawn to him. If you are, you should be with him. That is my last request to you Doc, be with John and live out your love for him.
I give you and John my blessing and I hope with all my heart that you two will find happiness in the love that I know you share for each other. You deserve it Doc. Doc, I can't imagine going on without you and I'm glad I don't have to anymore. It's better this way and I will truly be able to rest in peace if you take my words to heart. I've gained a lot of wisdom these past few years. The one thing that was the hardest for me to see, to admit was that you and John belong together. Maybe you always did. And if you can't be with me, I want you to be with him. I love you and want you to be happy. Please go to John and tell him you love him I know he feels the same way about you. Do this for me , for the memory of the happiness we once shared. My love for you will live on past my death. Remember me fondly,
If you're reading this letter, it means I'm dead. I want to make sure there are no bad feelings left between us. I understand why things happened the way they did between you and Doc. I don't blame either of you. It took me a while to let go of my anger, but I know your affair was the result of a deep love you felt for each other when you both thought you were me. Stefano played with all of our lives, all of our emotions, but the bottom line is, I know how much you and Doc still love each other. I just pray that you won't let circumstances keep you from being together. She needs you John, not only to console and comfort her, but to love her. I plead with you, do the right thing and once again, make Doc your wife. Nothing would make me happier.