This is a recorded speech/latter that Martin made for Katherine on 9-24-04 right before he went to find Alistair.
It's strange being here in this
house, on this estate. Thank God that I was able to convince Katherine to leave
me here alone. I don't want her exposed to what's about to happen between Alistair
and me. Even if I do manage to kill Alistair, I'll probably not make it off the
grounds alive, one of his guards will shoot me on site. I don't want to die, but
it's worth my life to get rid of Alistair And, Luis, my boy Luis won't have to
risk going to jail for his murder, and mine and Katherine's families can finally
be free of that bastard's cruelty. If you're listening to this Katherine, know
that I loved you and may God look after our families. I need you to do something
for me Katherine, if I don't make it out of here alive, I need you to tell Pilar
and the children how much I loved them. Let them know that I never would have
left them if there had been any other way to save your life. Over time I did
fall in love with you. Now I know that might be difficult for my children to
understand, but there was no other way that we could return home with Alistair
still alive. Tell Pilar that not a day went by when I didn't think about her and
want for her happiness. I can only hope that she and the children will
understand and perhaps someday forgive me. You can finally tell Sheridan and Julian
that you're their mother. You'll like that. I love you, Katherine. Goodbye.